PHILOSOPHIES AND REALIZATIONS

I am nowhere near perfection. I am committed to embodying authenticity, and will always gladly share my flaws, vulnerabilities, and weaknesses. I realize that this puts me at risk for being judged, categorized, and a possible subject for character assassination. I am the only person that I was born with and I am the only person that I will die with. I strive to ease up on my own inner critic, and be my own best friend. Blessed are the souls who have true loyalty and support from someone or somewhere or something. Not everyone does. I have been through so many trials and tribulations in my life that I have occasionally felt that I didn't think I had the strength within to carry on. I also carry a lot of guilt for not upholding myself to be the best person that I could be for myself and for the people around me at many times in my life. It's one thing to be aware of my flaws, and it's another thing to actually act on the bettering of myself and the demolishment of my flaws. I...

The holiday season can be a difficult time for many people. Suicide rates tend to go up and there is an increased amount of stress amongst most. Besides all  the hustle and bustle of holiday shopping, the deadline on getting Christmas cards sent out, and the dilemma of what to cook for Christmas dinner, there is an even increased amount of stress and depression for those who don't have any family.    For some of us, our family is literally deceased, but for many of us, we are just estranged from our family for some reason or another. At a time of the year where family values and togetherness are really important and valued, it can leave many of us feeling empty and alone.    Now I do have a saying that I hold deep to my heart that has aided me very well in my own life, and that is that when we are children, we are born into a family. We didn't ask for the people that we got or the hands that we were dealt, but nonetheless this is what we got. When we come of age...

          Coming Home  It's beautiful how we eventually come back to ourselves  Come into ourselves,  Come to realize ourselves  Coming into a newfound rhythm with ourselves  Resulting in really understanding ourselves  And that's all we got, if nothing else...               In My Hands  With unhindered motivation,  This will be my creation  It will come to fruition  And so this is my mission  My life will be so delicious  My life is in my hands  It's time to take a stand  I'm playing in a one-man band  So I'm making my life and loving myself the best that I can... DON'T THINK -JUST BE To truly love yourself is one of the hardest things to do. And when you truly love yourself, love for the world comes too... SOLITUDE PROVOKES GRATITUDE  Your current condition is NOT your conclusion... BE AWARE OF PERCEPTION DECEPTION...

I have always been striving to do, to be second best  I just realized this  And I have subconsciously been doing this on purpose  Not thinking I deserve this  Like a subconscious punishment for myself  Because I was always programmed to believe that I was unimportant,  Always unvalidated  So I purposely do just under the optimal best  But only allowing myself to be second best, runner up standards because I didn't believe that I ever deserved to be on top,  That's got to stop  Best was for other people, not me  Or was it really because I was told that was all I could be?  And thus that's mostly what it always has been for me... So now I'm scared to be the best,  To put myself to the test  But-lightbulb moment - NOT ANYMORE  I figured it out, without a doubt,  Now I'm finally going to settle the score!  From now on, I will strive to be much more!  More than ever before  Because myself, I have b...

You've got to feel so you can deal and eventually heal. And you got to keep it real...  Don't think, just BE. Just beingness is above the level of the mind... To truly love oneself is the hardest thing to do, Only when one truly loves themselves,  does love for the world comes too... 

The only true illusion is the illusion of separation. Fear comes from not feeling like you are connected to something else. There is a separation between you and whatever is causing you fear. If there was a feeling of oneness, then that outside thing would become a part of your own self and so there would be nothing to be afraid of. We have to be able to incorporate all of the energies outside of our physical body into our energy field. If we become one with what we fear, then we cannot fear it anymore. Fear is definitely an illusion, but it stems from the core feeling of separation from something else. The illusion of separation is the only illusion...